Depression Stinks

In case you haven’t been able to tell from my lack of upbeat posts lately I’m struggling a bit lately.

I’m just going to copy my post from my private family blog.

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Screaming, Crying, and Tired (kids, not just me)

It’s been a rough week. I don’t know why, I’m just tired and down and struggling. There’s nothing that’s any harder than usual, so I don’t know what’s up. So please pray for me if you get a chance.

Yesterday the bug guys came. They only sprayed the kitchen and main bathroom and said I’d only need to stay out of those areas for two hours, and that I didn’t need to leave. I decided to be extra cautious (and safe) and go ahead and leave for the day. They sprayed around 10AM and we didn’t come back until after I picked up Michael. I would have stayed out, but I was beat since either Aiden or Joey had been fussing all day long.

We went to IKEA, which was fun, but a challenge. I tried having Aiden in the back seat of the stroller, and Joey in the front, and for the most part it was great accept when Aiden got mad he’d kick Joey’s back. Joey didn’t seem to mind, but I’m NOT cool with Aiden kicking Joey… It was nice having a little more control of Aiden’s little hands though with him in the back. I took the pace so slow there and we were all the way done with lunch there, and slowly browsing through both floors before we moved on, by then it was only 12:30! I was hoping to kill more than 2 hours there!!!

So we went to the other Target (halfway to church for those who’ve been here), Joey was a screaming mess by then, so I put him in the Maya Wrap ring sling, and he went right to sleep. That was a relief, but then Aiden got majorly grouchy… At least we made it…

By the time we were done there it was only 2:22, 38 minutes before time to pick up Michael. I didn’t feel like we had time (or patience) for another store so we headed over to the school. We were second in line. That doens’t happen too often. I was tempted to check out Michael 30 minutes before school got out, especially since he has a substitute right now since his teacher is at conference, but I couldn’t justify it. So I walked Joey around the front pavilion while I soothed Aiden through the open car windows.

No wonder I was so tired by the time we had Michael.

I’m off to playgroup now, wish us luck.

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Well I didn’t go to playgroup, we got all ready and I just didn’t have the energy for it. Reading what you just have, I’m sure you can clearly see why.

I am however going to start my upbeat playlist, open the blinds and curtains and get cleaning my house, doing laundry and dishes. Even though cleaning isn’t my favorite thing I’m sure some light, and the resulting fresh house will help.