I’m feeling frustrated.

Dreams, Me, Venting, Wedding Photography
With my photography.  I took a wedding in early June, worked my heart out on it and don't even really feel like I did that well on it.  Other than that, and snapping my family, I haven't done any real photography since little more than halfway through my pregnancy with Joey.  I don't know what's wrong with me.  And of course my wanderings keep bumping me into wonderful inspiring photographers, and I feel so little and insignificant. Of course I've spent some time getting used to my new camera and had a few flubs there at the beginning, and that shot my confidence, so I need to just get out there again. I need a few pick me-up sessions, anyone willing to have pity on me?
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Another IKEA Saturday.

Aiden, Baby Joey, Family Fun, Humor, Kevin, Life in Texas, Me, Memories, Michael, Pictures, Venting
Daddy Smiling as we're finally out on our way.  Mom was super slow getting ready to go, and so we left about 3 hours later than he would have liked. We went to a fun little BBQ place and enjoyed a quiet lunch. We got to IKEA and dropped Michael off at Smalland, and headed on our way enjoying the whole showroom floor at a snails pace. A pretty dish set with lots of colorful creamy Bokeh. A head board I like a lot, thought I think Kevin has had his share of iron beds and our next one will be wooden, or if it's the right fabric, upholstered. We timed it just right to be done with the top floor just as it was time to pick up Michael.   …
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Photography Stuff

Aiden, Baby Joey, Family Fun, Me, Michael, Pictures, Venting
My favorite lens died. :(  I'm so sad.  I don't know if it's cheaper to have it fixed or replaced, and if I get it fixed, who says it'll stay fixed.  It's the auto focus mechanism that's out, and maybe those parts are like transmissions, and once they're gone they tend to be a money pit until you replace the whole thing...  So I'm looking for a new lens. But, playing around I got these two and edited one of Joey's to sorta match. What'aya think?  Should I get them printed?
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A Mural

Aiden, Pictures, Venting
And not the good kind.  Let a three year old have a crayon, and what do you have?  At least it's cute...  He's finally hit the trying to write letters stage.  I can't find my last magic eraser, it must have been tossed...  Add that to the shopping list. SOOC After some tweeking for visability. AND AHHHHH!  My photo program crashed, this is NOT what I need right now!  Whaaaa!  I have my photo's backed up, but have put in 50+ hours on them since...  I'm so glad I have a geek for a husband, lets see if I can get it under control before I have to call him, I think I can...  Sigh. ETA: OK, everything's fine.  Ugh.
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Everyday Minerals

Venting
OK, why I got my birthday present so late... I've had my eye on mineral make-up for about a year now.  I shopped around and the most professional but less expensive apparently became Everyday Minerals.  I asked around on my old forum, and read from several women who'd ordered from them and been thrilled with the products.  To top it off they have a free sample kit, where you pick 3 foundations, a blush or face color (some call this a bronzer), and a concealer for shipping cost alone.  Can't loose, right? I ordered a package from Everyday Minerals at the end of May for my birthday (June 5th).  According to the shipping rate, I should have received it before or on my Birthday.  I was a little concerned when…
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Depression Stinks

Aiden, Baby Joey, To new beginnings, Venting
In case you haven't been able to tell from my lack of upbeat posts lately I'm struggling a bit lately. I'm just going to copy my post from my private family blog. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Screaming, Crying, and Tired (kids, not just me) It's been a rough week. I don't know why, I'm just tired and down and struggling. There's nothing that's any harder than usual, so I don't know what's up. So please pray for me if you get a chance. Yesterday the bug guys came. They only sprayed the kitchen and main bathroom and said I'd only need to stay out of those areas for two hours, and that I didn't need to leave. I decided to be extra cautious (and safe) and go ahead and leave for the day.…
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“Tank-oo Mommy”

Aiden, Venting
I've quoted Aiden before, but now this is his favorite phrase.  Especially when he's been a huge stink.  Once I get him calmed down and to act rationally he always says "Tank-oo Mommy" with a sheepish side glance. I can't tell if this is a good thing or a bad thing.  It may be a bad thing since it means that he knows he's out of control and is being manipulative, or it may be a good thing because he's sincerely grateful to me for helping him get back on the ground without getting too grumpy in the meantime.  Maybe it's some of each. I just want the out of control tantrums to end.
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Yuck!

Aiden, Baby Joey, Kevin and I, Michael, Venting
Not such a good day yesterday. I had a tooth ache yesterday. It wasn't fun. Kevin's cell phone is broken, the antenna broke off on Saturday, and so it's reception is very, um, picky. So most of the time he can't make calls out, he only receives a handful of his incoming calls, and most phone calls he does get are garbled or one or the other person can't hear, or even better it just hangs up. This has been a blast... Hopefully they find his warranty soon at work and can get it fixed or replaced. Aiden was a little crankier than usual. Enough so that we didn't get out the door into the car to go get Michael till about 10 minutes later than usual. I pulled up…
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